| Location | Redditch |
| Age | 16 years |
| Cause of Death | Cancer |
| Date of Birth | 03/07/1992 |
| Date of Death | 07/06/2009 |
| Visitors | 2,962 since 08/06/2009 |
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10TH OCTOBER 2009
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WITH LOVE FROM JUDE. X X
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9TH OCTOBER 2009
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FROM JUDE. X X
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theres a special kind of feeling thats meant for you alone a special place within our hearts that only you can own xxx
morning sweet pea im missing you so much u are always in my heart always will be love you so much jess xx
8TH OCTOBER 2009
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BLESSING TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ALWAYS,.LOVE JUDE.X
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With love
♥ A Shade of Sadness. ♥
In comes the darkness to my soul
even as I sit in the early morning sun,
the distant sounds of the living
seem far removed from the fogginess of my mind.
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In the stillness of the house
which seems quieter than quiet,
time seems to pass too slowly.
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A feeling of being outside myself
looking back into an empty shell
of the person I used to be.
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I cry for my former self.
That person I once liked and enjoyed.
She is gone.
A loss within a loss, within a loss.
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A heaviness in my heart,
the weight of a million tears.
Drowning my emotions,
mixing and swirling in a pool of despair.
Ugly hateful despair.
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A sadness so deep and heavy
leaving the body tired and used,
I feel I could sleep,
sleep for a thousand years and never wake up.
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A thousand years will not change a thing.
You would still not be here.
What to believe, I don't know.
I just don't know. My soul is lost.
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I know not which way to turn.
Where to look,
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I feel helpless,
helpless to help my self,
annoyed with the daily things of life I must do.
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I don't care, not anymore.
The world could fall upon it's knees
it would not matter,
I am too shrouded in the darkness of my world
that spins ever out of control,
directing my emotions
with no warning as to what feelings
will be brought upon me next.
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There is guilt, another weight to bear.
Those who are with me, who I love and love me,
they need me, but I am not ready.
I hold them back at arms length,
I am not ready,
their demands draw on what strength I have left.
For that I am sorry,
but I cannot help bringing on the emotional distance.
There is a need to protect myself,
but from what I am not sure.
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There is anger.
Anger that occasionally swells within me.
There is no direction into which to fling this anger.
It is a new and different type of anger
not one I am familiar with and it disturbs me.
It makes me afraid.
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I try to be strong. For you, and only you.
I try to think what you would have me do.
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I know you would want me to live my life.
To continue on. It is not an easy task, not at all.
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Some days I can go out
and meet the world with vigor and say I do this for you.
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Some days I must crawl into my shell
and hide from the world that has been so cruel to me.
I am trying.
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The days are filled with thoughts of you,
and should I find myself not thinking of you,
I gasp for fear that I am forgetting you.
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I have learned to value life, you have taught me this.
To see the beauty in each day given to me,
even through this veil of sad darkness.
I know it is there waiting for me.
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Someday the sadness will lift
and I will only think of you
with a smile and warmness in my heart.
My love for you will always be there
that shall never pass
and I hope somehow you know this too.
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Your memory is only a heartbeat away.
I shall always love,
I shall always long for you,
I shall always wish to have you back.
And I shall live -- if only for you.
For you Jess and for your mum and nan who miss you so very much but are so brave and keep on going .... for you xxxx
7TH OCTOBER 2009
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